Stress Sucks

This has been a stressful week and it's only Wednesday! We got a letter from our mortgage company saying that if we didn't pay our past due amount plus our July payment by July 18 then they would start the foreclosure process. Luckily, Danny called them and was able to work out a repayment plan. I really don't need any added stress, my normal day-to-day stress is enough!

I did manage to lose another pound this week despite really bad food choices. Maybe I should write a book called "The Stress Diet - How to lose weight by stressing yourself out to your breaking point".

Hooray for skinny jeans!

I just put on a pair of my "skinny" jeans (jeans that fit fine last summer but I had to put into retirement for a few months) and could actually button them without having to suck in my gut! Yippee!

Maybe it just isn't meant to be

Argh, I just got a call from the drs office. The dr. is going to be out of town on the day my appt. was scheduled so I had to reschedule it. Now I have to wait a week longer, July 18. That means I won't get in to see her before my next cycle starts and I won't be able to do the CD 3 testing right away. So besides the fact that I have to wait a month to see the dr. I now will probably have to wait two cycles to get all of the testing done. :(

"Officially" Infertile

We're officially infertile according to the definition. AF showed up Saturday and we've moved on to cycle 13. Even Danny was bummed about it, especially after I told him that if this had been our month I would have been due on his birthday. He seems to be on board for doing some testing now too. All this time he's been saying "it will happen when it's our time" but I think he's realizing now that "our time" might not be coming. I talked to him yesterday about scheduling an appointment to start testing. I told him our options are to go to an OBGYN to get some of the initial testing done or straight to an RE. We know we don't want to do IVF and I'm afraid that going straight to an RE will mean we'll be pressured to do IVF. I also don't currently have an OBGYN and when I do get pregnant I'll need one.

So after going back and forth with the decision in my head I called the OBGYN this morning. Unfortunately the first appointment she had available that would work for me is on July 11. So I have 25 days to wait. I'll be at the end of this cycle by then though and that means I'll be able to start the testing soon after meeting with the doctor. One of the first infertiliy tests done is the CD 3 test and I should be expecting my CD 3 for cycle 14 to be on July 15. Oddly enough, I'm finding that I'm pretty excited about the upcoming appointment. At this point I just want to get some questions answered and I feel like now I've gotten the ball rolling in the right direction!

I never thought I'd say this...

but I really wish AF would just hurry up and get here. I'm currently 14 dpo and have been getting BFNs for the past two days. I even broke down and used the holy grail, a First Response HPT, and not even a hint of a line. I really just want this cycle to end so I can call the doctor and move on.

BFN

The title says it all. BFN this morning despite a temp rise. And to add to the fun we're having problems with our bank. Yay me.

Another Weigh In, Another 2WW

My weigh in yesterday was ok. I lost the .5 that I gained last week so that puts me at 7 lbs. total lost. This week I'm going to get gack on track and journal. I've been giving up journaling halfway through the weekend for the past two weeks and I'm sure that isn't helping.

I'm also in another 2WW. AF is due to visit me tomorrow but my temps aren't dropping yet. Almost every other cycle my temps go down 1 or 2 days before AF but this cycle mine are still up. I'm wondering if the Ovusoft software set my O date right. My temps the first two days after O were a lot lower than 3dpo on. I just wish either AF would show up or I could work up the courage to test because if this cycle is a bust I want to make an appointment with a new OBGYN for a fertility workup. I'm really trying to not get my hopes up but if I am pregnant my due date would be Danny's birthday. I think that would be on of the best birthday presents he could ask for!

Vet Visits

We've only had Zeke since Saturday and have already made two visits to the vet. The first one was just a general check since he came from the humane society. Then, Wednesday night he accidentally got hit in the eye with a toy bone. Yesterday morning he was still squinting so I called the vet and they had me bring him in. He had a dye test done and got sent home with two prescription eye drops. Total cost for vet visits so far: over $120!

Late Weigh In

This week I weighed in on Wednesday instead of Tuesday. My dad spent the day in the hospital Tuesday so my mom and I skipped WW. He's doing better now, he didn't even have to stay overnight.

My weight isn't doing as good. I gained .5 again. I did use all of my Flex Points last week so I'm guessing that, combined with hardly any exercise, makes for a bad week. I'm getting right back on track this week and I'm going to try to stay away from the Flex Points. Zeke and I are also going to try taking some walks. Hopefully next weeks weigh in will be better!

The Newest Member of Our Family

We went to the Humane Society Saturday afternoon and adopted a puppy! His name is Zeke, he's a basset hound mix and he's 2 months old. So far he's been a very good puppy but it's been a lot like having a newborn in the house. We've managed to get some more sleep by letting him sleep in our bedroom with us but we're going to have to put a stop to that before it becomes a habit. Ashton is loving having him to play with and always wants to be with him.

6 Years Ago Today....